rest & revitalize
“I didn’t go for a walk today. I probably should have.”
I find myself time and time again repeating this ‘tale as old as time’ mantra that rest is also productive. A hot tip I am quick to advocate to others when they tell me they have been feeling less than themselves. A piece of guidance that’s easier to tell others to follow than it is to heed the advice we don’t inherently follow ourselves.
The Piscean Full Moon energy didn’t disappoint and the whiplash of emotions I received over the course of the day was a lot more than I am used to. When that is paired with my lingering inability to fall asleep in the timeframe I have become accustomed was enough to collapse me right into the arms of a nap after finishing work today.
“Give yourself some grace, you also went yesterday. Rest is crucial in healing; don’t beat yourself up. I know you know… but I also know what you’re saying.”
The power of ‘should’ is an interesting thing. I don’t like ‘should-ing’ on myself and I don’t like ‘should-ing’ on other people. Where else in this universe does any other species spend their time contemplating the shoulds of the past or the future? They don’t; in fact, they’re likely not even aware that those concepts exist.
It’s kind of wild that humans are deemed the ‘smartest’ creates on the planet. According to ourselves, of course. . An interesting concept when humbly I believe we are probably the least in tune with our intuition. If all homes were to be demolished and electricity eradicated the vast majority of us would quickly cease to exist on our own planet. We are the ones with undiscovered and misunderstood depths within the master organs that make up what it physically means to be human.
Instead we focus on dedicating our entire days to ‘the grind’ or ‘hustling’ which truthfully isn’t considered positive by really any other species on the planet. Nature never hurries, and she’s always on time. Instead we’ve cultivated an experience that places importance on external factors; prerecorded milestones from belief systems that we were born into or placing importance on societal opinion rather than doing what feels good or right within the soul perched within the cage in our chests.
As far as I see it, I want to come across as a woman who is so raw, so intuitive. A woman who observes the entirety of the life force surrounding her and embraces her femininity. A woman who offers no apologies for who she is or how she moves through this incarnation basing decisions on how she feels. I am the personification of cosmic things from the past. The unspoken lessons coded within our bones. I want to live in my wild brain, where my inner voice no longer whispers, but she howls. Escaping the confines of everyday structure.
& like the movement of the wind, the heat of the flame, the flow of the water, and the abundance of fertile magic of the earth, I was not meant to be controlled.
I am meant to just be.
xo-jess